Lisa's Place
Hi my name is Lisa.
I own The Love For Children Webring,Your Not Alone Webring, and Calm Harbor.
All Of These site's are meant to be of help to others.
You see I was abused as a child and the Lord has brought me
through some deep and dark valley's so that I might someday be a
strong witness testifying to His great love and His wonderful
faithfulness.
And, to be of good encouragement where and when I can to
other's who are in need and are suffering.
So this page is 'My Testimony Page'.
When I was 6 my Mom and Dad seprarated. My twin sister(Leah)
and I lived with my mom. Well after a while, my Dad wanted Leah
and I to go and live with him. So we did. But when we were with
Dad we wanted to be with mom. And when we where with Mom we
wanted to be with Dad.
Our love and affection for them both was a constant struggle.
We were always so torn between the two of them.
While we were with one the loneliness would soon set in for the other one.
But finally, we went to live with Dad.
It was during this time that he met and married my step mom.Within
2 weeks of meeting her they were married.
I believe Dad did this in an effort to furnish me and Leah with a
more 'complete' home life.
The first few weeks with our new step Mom were just great! She
was making us clothes and being really sweet and nice!!
BUT THEN THINGS CHANGED!
And, also changed me forever! Our wonderful new step Mom went
from being a kind and gentle woman to a mean, overbearing.
abusive attila Hun.
She would hit on us all the time for little or no reason. And
while Leah was the strong one not taking her abuse I on the other
hand was so weak and so scared of this women.
When she got mad? She would pick up anything close to her and
hit me with it. She lashed out both verbal and physical rages.
Hitting me with hangers,
hammer handles or whatever else she could lay her hands on.
And, she was forever telling both me and Leah how we would
never amount to anything. Never having a kind word for either of
us.
Yep! I was the weaker sister not strong like leah. I would let the
fear set in from this women's daily abuse and let it take control
and toll over me.
I would get to where when she hit me i didnt cry.
But,evetually she would just keep hitting me until she would see
tears. I got where i just block the pain out. At times I felt I could die.
That I didnt want to live in this hell any longer.
When I was 20 I even tried to take my own life because I just
wanted to escape the hell that I was and had been in for years.
As time went on and I got older,I started doing my own thing.
I drank and ran around trying to medicate and cover all the pain I
had inside of me. I would do anything and everything trying to
find someone to love me the way I wanted and needed to be
loved!
Even if that meant'making' them love me.
But,I soon found out you can not make people love you.
The bible says we owe no man nothing except to LOVE him
(God) first and above all others. The Lord was there for me all
the time.
Watching over me... bringing me through those things and events
in my life that at the time I didnt even see or know.
He was preparing me to the work for him. Giving me real
substance,compassion and love to help others in the future.Now
I'm not saying it was His will for me to suffer. it's wasn't!
But He brought me through my circumstances and my pain to shape
the vessel he needed to be of help to others. I truly believe He
spared my life to be a beacon of His love witnessing to others
what he will do in their lives...God is there and taste and see
how good He is!
He loves you and I so much! And he will bring us though our
darkest days!!! He will Love you and when it seems no one will or
does. he is a wonderful Friend!
he will be there when we have no one else.Jesus hung on the
Cross for you and me dear friend,physically arose from the
dead and by the power of the Holy Spirit is now sitting at the
right hand of God interceding daily on our behalf!
He has even built a mansion for us to live in when we get home to
be with Him and loves us with a 'agape' love! All you have to do
to know Him is to sincerely confess and forsake your sins and
ask Him to forgive you. Invite him to come into your life and be
your friend,your Savor and give Him Lordship over your whole
being. And He will!!!
If you do this? Your life my friend will be filled with
unspeakable and tremendous peace,hope,love and joy.
Unlike anything you have ever never known.I write this testimony to
help you to know that your not alone in this world and to
introduce to my very best friend,Jesus Christ.
he will always be there for you no matter what your circumstances
are.He will take the hatred,the pain,the lonelines,and the
rejection you feel and shower upon your spirit His grace giving
you the ultimate gift..to'forgive'those whom have gravely
hurt you.
He will cause you to love the one who abused you.He will make
you whole!!!God Bless each who enters this webpage.may you
come to know the healing that comes only from personally
knowing Jesus Christ. Love to you all!! Lisa
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